"I See the Light"

It's certainly no secret that I absolutely love Disney movies. Pretty much everyone who knows me knows that Beauty and the Beast is my favorite movie of all time. I have watched it so many times that I can recite the words to the entire movie while watching it. Disney movies are always my feel good, pick me up movies and they make me feel all warm and safe. That is until the credits start rolling and I come back into reality. That's when I start to feel the ache. Not a physical ache, but a mental or emotional ache. It's a longing for something exciting, some adventure where my moral stamina and resourcefulness are put to the test. An adventure where I meet a dashing young man who seems different from me at first, but actually complements me perfectly. A young man that I will fall in love with and he would love me, too.

I know it seems overly romantic, but I want something exciting to happen and I want to fall in love. Why not have them together? It could happen, right?

I will say most of the time I don't have that longing feeling. Only every now and then will it creep up on me, and then I'm sent into a whirlwind of emotion about how I want to be in love, and will I ever have someone to love me and hold me? I have never really been in love, and I try to wait for that patiently. My priest told me once not to worry about dating or trying to have a relationship, and that God will provide. I wholeheartedly agree with that. I'm not out trying to find someone, I'm not running around desperately trying to meet guys and date everyone who comes my way. But I can't help wondering when I will meet my dashing young man. Sometimes I even ask myself if I will ever meet him.

Oddly enough my grandparents are the two people who are most concerned about me getting married. Every time I talk to them they ask if have a boyfriend, and as usual I respond "no". Then they tell me that they'll look around and sometimes they even want me to meet someone. I think they've sort of given up on the idea that I will get married soon because my grandmother has a set of silver that she wants to give to me when I get married. She has always said that it will be my wedding gift and there's even a note inside that says so. But one day when I was about 18 or 19 she mentioned that the silver would be my wedding gift, and then she followed that statement with something I had never heard before. She added, "Or you can have it whenever you want." Ouch. I guess she meant she's not confident she'll be at my wedding, which I certainly won't think about either.

There's a song in Tangled, my newest Disney obsession, called "I See the Light" and it's my favorite. It's where Rapunzel and Flynn realize they love each other and it's super adorable and romantic. I guess I just want to "see the light" and I'm hoping it comes sooner rather than later. But all I can do is wait patiently. And that's the worst part. Waiting. Waiting for my Flynn Rider, so to speak. Until then, I'll just have to do what I can to shake this dreary feeling, and remember all the good things I have.